Some thoughts

Just a few ramblings that I would like to put into words

I am starting to spin quite a few things up again. It has been years since this website has been built but I have not contributed anything to it in the last few years as I have been on sort of a mental hiatus over the last several years causing me to be in a depressive, yet dismissing of my own issues. Looping back around to where I am now amazes me about how far I have come from when this website was first being developed. When I was younger, only really knew at the time how to build website back-ends in PHP and some basics in design theory, but my lack of self confidence lead me to believe I was not capable of making a career out of anything tech related. Stopping at the crude conclusion that I am not capable, I started on my journey of finding out what I really wanted from life. As one can believe, this lead me feeling unsatisfied with every single job I did, because I was so infatuated with all of the boring technical parts of the certain jobs while also dismissing all of the other "menial mind-numbing" types of duties. In time, I ended up getting treated poorly by my coworkers, and constantly felt like I should go back into tech. Because all of the aforementioned issues, I ended up learning the hard way that I have actually been putting myself down this entire time all due to a mindset that I developed through childhood neglect and trauma. However, since then I have moved on as I am able to finally grasp my intellectual abilities and mental health!

Ramble

Roadmap